Dead Happy Memories

The cold breeze is in the air today
Here in the tropical paradise of Florida
The leaves are slowly dying
The grass is dying too

I feel so happy and so alive
But then my world starts shattering again
Being replaced and forgotten by Color Guard
Hurting me with their trust for only their friends

A blond named Chesterton looks at me with disgust
They all look at me with disgust
I saw who they are finally
Why didn't I see that sooner?

As I stroll through the cold breeze
I see a couple kissing underneath a dying tree
The memories came back from the dead
Came back from cremation once more

I remember Emma and I strolling through the park
It had a cool breeze and it was turing into fall
The land of Enchantment was so beautiful all year long
No matter the season it was in or the time

There was a gental cool breeze that flew in
Her beautiful hair flowed through the wind
We strolled through the park and sat under a tree
And looked at each other in the eyes

We decided to lay down looking at the blue sky
Looking at the clouds passing by
We both said love you to each other
It was warm as blue fire

I felt so happy at that moment
I felt reborn into a world of paradise
We kissed instead of looking at the clouds
A tear comes down my eye as the memory ends

I shake off the pain like I normally do
I have to remember that I moved and she no longer remembers me
Just like my brothers and sisters at Color Guard
I have no family to go to again

Finally I come back home
I'm fatigued and have a rain cloud over my head
The memory comes back after I said, "I love you forever Emma."
I cried silently and remembered the pain again

I wish I didn't have to move away
I loved her with all of my heart
I was accepted like a person where I moved from
I felt like people cared for me there

I want to go back and never lose her again
I want to go back to the way things were again
I was cared for and I was loved
I had happy memories back in New Mexico

Sob sob I still miss Emma
Why did I have to lose her?
I have to get going though and shake off the pain
This is only a shell with dead memories

The winter is coming soon
It gets cold here in Florida too
The cold doesn't affect me
My dead memories remain inside colder than the weather

The memory of Emma rests in ice
So does my memory of love and New Mexico
Shake off the pain and walk through the ice
The happy memories that you had are forever dead

Color Guard and Emma forgot about you
The world forgot about you
You've survived this far
Just keep going